Sweating The Small Stuff........

Hi All,

I have a lot on my mind lately, especially this week and I need to write something somewhere as I am scared my head will end up bursting with all the thoughts racing through it..

Has anyone ever had the feeling / experience of thinking about the little things that was said to you all at once and it feels like you can't finish thinking of 1 thing then the next just jumps into your mind?? Well that is exactly whats going on in my head at the moment, so I figured that I would blog about it.... Maybe I can then sort through my filing cabinet (my mind) and get my thoughts back on track and in order....... Shew, so here goes..

For as long as I can remember I always wondered why I sweat the small stuff, why do little things affect me so much and bigger things I tend to handle with a lot more grace and I normally take the bigger things in my stride... But the small things hurt, throw me off track, make me questions things.... if anyone has an answer then I am all ears....

There are so many things that I treasure and that are important to me for eg: a flower picked from a garden and given to me - To someone else this may seem like a small gesture or "Oh, how nice, a flower" but to me its affection, it tells me that, that person thought of me and cares for me, if you see where I am going with this...

I have never expected anything from anyone ever but yet some feel that my expectations placed on them are very high - I might not see what others see but what I believe in is what makes me, well me.... I have spent my whole life trying to mould myself to others perceptions on how I should be and behave - I have done this for as long as I can remember and always end up asking myself why? Shouldn't people just like me for who I am? Am I too afraid to let people know who I am in fear of rejection?? Ok Ok - lets not get too deep on this one, but I am sure you know what I mean..

A few things were said to me a while ago, some of it hurt and some didn't but as I continue thinking about these things I can see that it was purely a projection and not really an attack on me as a person... So the sooner I learn this lesson the better things will be......

I thought this blog would be longer but it was just a quick scribble of what is going through my mind and hey I feel better already..... It helps to get those thoughts and feelings down and out there...

To all my friends - I treasure our friendship more than you will ever know...

To My Beautiful Children - I love you very very much and I am blessed to have every single day with you..

To My Husband - You are indeed my strength and you have listened to me go on and on about all this stuff in my head - You have helped me see things from others point of view and I love you lots for allowing me to be me...

God bless everyone..

Love
Claire